Today I’m frustrated.

And sad.

Really, really sad.

I found out yesterday (my whole family found out yesterday) that my cousin’s beautiful baby girl, Penny has Stage 4 Neuroblastoma.  Whatever the hell that even means…I don’t know.  I only know that my family is reeling and Penny is in a fight for her life.

My cousin has had a jacked up year and this is just one more thing that she doesn’t deserve.

I guess little Penny is one sick little girl.  Tumors rage throughout her body, her eyes are puffy with dark circles underneath.

I just want to vomit.

This isn’t even MY child, but she is my family and my heart is hurting.

And then to make me feel even worse, it’s raining outside and my boys are going stir crazy.  I can’t help getting irritated with them and then I am so angry at myself for being mad.  Here are these beautiful healthy little boys who are driving me NUTS.  Penny’s not even old enough to drive anyone nuts.

She’s not even one.

If you are a spiritual person I would really appreciate it if you could send some prayers her way.  Fund raising efforts are in the very very early stages but if you feel compelled, you can follow them on Facebook at Pennies for Penny.

*sigh*